change

change seems such a simple concept...
yet how difficult it is to effect real change and to accept the reality of those changes...

why do we get stuck in the same dysfunctional patterns that hold us back or thrust us into situations we'd rather not face?

i'm learning it's those situations that hold the lessons we MUST face and conquer for growth to truly occur...

those patterns get repeated because we didn't find the true answers and we didn't learn the lesson we needed to push us further into Being...

i want change...
i dream about change...
i long for change...

and even though i see HUGE changes in myself,
how i think and what i do and how i feel...
the changes i want, dream and long for are still out of reach...

it's not that my arms aren't long enough...

it's that the universe is still waiting for me to learn the lessons i need to learn so that i may move towards those changes with the right mind and best of possibilities ahead of me...

the tree

there is this tree by the river...
a tree i get the pleasure of driving by at least once a day...
this particular tree is stunning in it naked form...
but somehow when the leaves appear to adorn it's bare branches, it seems to take away from it's striking beauty...
this beautiful favorite tree along the river is losing strength from all the storms and rain of the past spring and i can see it struggle to remain standing...
it seems aware of the beauty of it's own frame and during this struggle has only adorned half itself with leaves...
so now i drive by the river and this particular tree is even more eye catching, with it's beautifully formed branches bare against the green of it's living half...

reminds me that even death is a thing of beauty...